
got my hair done

all dressed up for kaylas party

me and kayla

Jack and I at the Hotel

Mommy and Cody at the Wharf

Cody and I at the Cheesecake Factory
I have been completely exhausted lately and from what? I have no idea..doing nothing makes me tired i guess..Patrick was supposed to be here this week but had some family stuff going on so his trip got postponed :( which kinda bummed me out like majorly. But at least I get to see kayla soon..i'll be at her house from the 18th-25th of next month. that should be super fun. i cant wait. and mom and i are taking a trip to see cody before i go to kaylas. than we have a dirtbike race..my birthday..and school starts 9/23 yippee skippee-not :P i tried to read through my biology textbook but *snore* it was uber boring. i hung out with tyler like every day this week which was good :) :) we went to the lake a couple times. yay for jet skis-fun stuff! andd other than that not much is going on!

wham bam blue eyes :)

My friend Patrick from New York
My friend Maggie from idk where

at the skate bowls

Me and my friend Kayla who is from Ohio
Camp was awesome. I got really sore though. But i had tons of ice cream and grilled cheese with bacon. yum yum yum. and i met tons of cool people from all over who i will keep in touch with and will see at camp next year. after mom picked me up we went straight to a dirtbike track and i rode 3 days in a row. than on tuesday cross country practice started so right about now i am ready to crash. hello hot tub.
Who would have ever guessed that adopting a little boy could change your life so much..one day its a family of 5 who can just go about their business without really worrying what everyones doing..the next its a family 0f 6 and we have to pay attention to collin every second or he'll mess with the dog and get nipped, fall down on his bike and scrape his face up, get into the snack drawer, or crash his bike into the cars parked in the driveway :) its crazy how much one little 4 year old boy can make your life 400 times more stressful!! I'm constantly worrying and man that just wears me out! and with cody leaving for college, that changes stuff too..its crazy. just plain crazy.
so..long time no blog hehe. i have been super busy! with school winding down, racing, and collin..well it has been crrazzy! :) but im getting used to it. im really excited for HCSC which is coming up here in a few weeks. its snowboard in oregon and i cannot wait. its gonna be soooo much fun! i got some new pants and a helmet for it today at monkey rides. everything is on closeout and is 50% off!!!! i saved $160 on all my stuff!! i was pumped :)
okay well i have to go pack for the race this weekend @ washougal but i will post somethin as soon as i can :)

BOOTS!!

mommy and collin

mommy and collin

mommy and collin

mommy drivin the tractor

collin and daddy

zonin out playin games with wyatt lol

with matt at supercross

with me at supercross

with daddy at supercross

at supercross

with chad reed's bike..(his fave racer)

on matt's bike at PIR

posin at PIR

collin, sleepin on mom :)

checkin out the easter basket

collin on matt's shoulders

at an easter egg hunt

olive fingers

in the hot tub
feeding the cat snow
me and collin at a bowling bday party

makin faces before bedtime :) i sure love those footy pajamas :)

all dressed up for a birthday party. we went bowling :)

both of them are waiting attentively for mom to come back..

SO cute!!

chillin on the couch

look at that smile

this is when he got restless and started makin silly faces haha
okay its been awhile since i've posted anything so i'm just posting a buncha pics with descriptions :) enjoy..

This is my new lil dude ;) we were goin out to play

my lil dude again :) i stuck the FMF sticker on his bike right b4 i took the pic!

drivin back from utah. these are matt and jack's heads

jack wearin matts hat from texas. he looks kinda angry :/

he looks more cheerful in this one :)

this ones on the way to utah. jack got REALLY sleepy :)

lil dude and mom were makin cookies :) SO adorable :)
this is my helmet on the lil dude. he calls it a 'dirtbike hat' haha
again with the dirtbike hat ;)
I went up boardin with Ricky for his (late) birthday. this is what he had for lunch. all he ate was the insides of the reeses as usual haha. he just throws away the outsides. kinda peculiar..
he always falls asleep in the car :) its so cute!
little racer ;)
Me and my lil dude at the pool. he is such a fish! he said he wanted to stay forever an ever! :)
These are a bunch of poems I have written during various times in my life...
All Without Words
Walking away
Glancing back
Somber faces
Eyes like glass
Glancing back
A glint
A tear
Rolling down a cheek
Frozen in time
No words to speak
Emotions mixed
Confusion rings
Glancing back
Tender lips
A fake smile
Take no comfort
A long while
Till this will pass
Glancing back
Pained expressions
Joy lacks
Glancing back
The eyes
That used to smile
Say goodbye
Silence.
-james
I Don't Know
When I'm alone
I feel cold
Like I'm struggling to breathe
All by myself
Like a story
With no happy ending
I feel weak
At the knees
Like I'm falling towards the ground
It's like I'm lost
In a maze
And I can't find my way out
I'm tired, scared and reckless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
I felt safe
In your arms
Now I'm not sure where to go
I could go right
I could go left
But right now I'm too confused
You said for sure
That you would stay
But now you've gone away
And here I sit
Wondering
What am I supposed to do
I'm lonely, sad and restless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
-james
How Do You Know?
How do you know?
You know when merely the thought of him brings you joy.
When even the smallest glimpse of him quickens your heartbeat.
When he takes your breath away with a single smile.
When he holds you in his arms and all of your words are lost.
When you can look into each others eyes and say I love you without ever parting your lips.
You know when you no longer ask yourself, "Is this it?"
-james
Him
The hair that I run my fingers through
The eyes that stare into mine
The ears that listen to all I have to say
The lips that kiss mine
The arms that hold me tight
The fingers that intertwine with mine
The legs with which he stands tall
The feet that support him
From head to toe
He is perfect
-james
Do You Know?
Is it love
You ask yourself
How do you know
How should it feel
I think love
Should feel breathless
Amazing and complete
What is love
We always wonder
Will I know
Will I be sure
I'm sure love
Will feel certain
And you'll never have a doubt
I think of it as wonderful
Like in a splendid dream
Never pressured, always patient
As in fairytales it seems
So when you ask if it is love or not
Only ask yourself
Because to each and every person
A different answers found
-james
Silent Knowing
Together they share,
Unknown to others,
A smile, a touch, a private stare.
Lost are they,
In a world all their own,
Treasuring silence,
Yet a million words to say.
Words linger unsaid,
And float through their minds,
Fingers intertwine,
Thoughts of all else dead.
Their smiles they show,
Their feelings they express,
Their words are left silent,
Because in their hearts they know.
-james
Hiding
Hidden is she,
The one you never see.
Empty and lonely,
Hidden deep beneath the sea.
Sea of faces,
Sea of tears,
Sea of places,
Sea of fears.
She hides herself from us you see,
Because she never learned to be.
Learned to be free,
And spread her wings,
Open herself,
For us to see.
She never wanted us to know,
The depth she truly held.
She never wanted us too near,
For fear of love itself.
She shut us out and kept her in,
So that we'd never know,
That she was scared of what we'd think,
When she let her true self show.
-james
Laughter, Joy and Love
Walking all alone,
Shadows flicker,
Footsteps groan,
He approaches,
Secret smiles exchanged,
Lost feelings renewed,
Laughter, Joy and Love.
First, Laughter
Ringing clear and true.
Next Joy,
Filling the hearts of many.
Then Love,
Lingering like a morning fog,
Dampening some,
While enlightening others.
Laughter, Joy and Love.
-james