am feeling very blah right now. will write something of interest in the near future...ugh. -james.
i raced at PIR yesterday. it was pretty fun haha. an today i went to work. that was not so much fun. but i took wyatt fishing too an that was alright the creek was gorgeous!! see:
i took the pic on my phone.
so today i babysit two little girls for ten hours. it was intense. but i made it. im still here. alive and well. phwew! haha naw it wasnt too bad. the girls are 4 and 5. the 4 year old threw a buncha screaming fits an stuff i just sat there an stared at her till she stopped which was pretty quick cuz she wasnt gettin the attention she wanted haha. we swam, they did dress up, played some games, did puzzles, play-doh, and ran around like crazy people. im sure theyll pass out no problem tonight...i prob will to hahaha. i havent been this tired in soooooooo long. alright well im gonna get off. peace. :) xo :)
today i am going to motosport hillsboro with matt to go get 3 new bikes!! i just felt the need to say that haha :)
so this weekend i rode at riverdale. practice saturday. race sunday. it was super hot all weekend. more so in my gear. i was drenched in sweat. gross. haha. i rode okay on saturday and after we rode we went down to the river and cooled down. that was fun. than on sunday i got 1st in my 1st moto an i rode good. than in my 2nd moto i went down an i got passed so after i got back up i rode better than i have ever ridden b4!! it was intense haha. i scared myself cuz i was jumpin everything. i finally caught her on the finish line table. i basically jumped over her head. i thought i was gonna land on her, but apparently she crossed the checkered flag first so i got 2nd :( i was so mad i cried. i tried so hard! i'll get her next time tho. it was a good experience for me :)
alright. its been a couple days so i figured i should write somethin. hmm...today i got up an went grocery shoppin with my mommy haha. we bought so much food it barely fit in the cart. it was overflowing. than we came home an put all the food away. than i cleaned the laundry room an did some other chores. after that we went an picked up dustin an he came over an we hung out, baked a cake, played guitar hero (cody totally dominated dustin hahahaha) played with a football and swung on the swingset. fun stuff haha. he's pretty cool, for a boy anyways. haha. i just finished dinner an since i have braces ive got a buncha corn stuck in em. its gross. lol. dustin said that i do weird stuff...i wonder where he got that idea...?? haha. im very unique. it works for me. alrighty i think i'm gonna go brush my teeth :) peace.
I AM HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just thought you might wanna know lol :) :) miss me?? well prob not u are kinda a computer.....hahahaxoxo peace
These are a bunch of poems I have written during various times in my life...
All Without Words
Walking away
Glancing back
Somber faces
Eyes like glass
Glancing back
A glint
A tear
Rolling down a cheek
Frozen in time
No words to speak
Emotions mixed
Confusion rings
Glancing back
Tender lips
A fake smile
Take no comfort
A long while
Till this will pass
Glancing back
Pained expressions
Joy lacks
Glancing back
The eyes
That used to smile
Say goodbye
Silence.
-james
I Don't Know
When I'm alone
I feel cold
Like I'm struggling to breathe
All by myself
Like a story
With no happy ending
I feel weak
At the knees
Like I'm falling towards the ground
It's like I'm lost
In a maze
And I can't find my way out
I'm tired, scared and reckless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
I felt safe
In your arms
Now I'm not sure where to go
I could go right
I could go left
But right now I'm too confused
You said for sure
That you would stay
But now you've gone away
And here I sit
Wondering
What am I supposed to do
I'm lonely, sad and restless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
-james
How Do You Know?
How do you know?
You know when merely the thought of him brings you joy.
When even the smallest glimpse of him quickens your heartbeat.
When he takes your breath away with a single smile.
When he holds you in his arms and all of your words are lost.
When you can look into each others eyes and say I love you without ever parting your lips.
You know when you no longer ask yourself, "Is this it?"
-james
Him
The hair that I run my fingers through
The eyes that stare into mine
The ears that listen to all I have to say
The lips that kiss mine
The arms that hold me tight
The fingers that intertwine with mine
The legs with which he stands tall
The feet that support him
From head to toe
He is perfect
-james
Do You Know?
Is it love
You ask yourself
How do you know
How should it feel
I think love
Should feel breathless
Amazing and complete
What is love
We always wonder
Will I know
Will I be sure
I'm sure love
Will feel certain
And you'll never have a doubt
I think of it as wonderful
Like in a splendid dream
Never pressured, always patient
As in fairytales it seems
So when you ask if it is love or not
Only ask yourself
Because to each and every person
A different answers found
-james
Silent Knowing
Together they share,
Unknown to others,
A smile, a touch, a private stare.
Lost are they,
In a world all their own,
Treasuring silence,
Yet a million words to say.
Words linger unsaid,
And float through their minds,
Fingers intertwine,
Thoughts of all else dead.
Their smiles they show,
Their feelings they express,
Their words are left silent,
Because in their hearts they know.
-james
Hiding
Hidden is she,
The one you never see.
Empty and lonely,
Hidden deep beneath the sea.
Sea of faces,
Sea of tears,
Sea of places,
Sea of fears.
She hides herself from us you see,
Because she never learned to be.
Learned to be free,
And spread her wings,
Open herself,
For us to see.
She never wanted us to know,
The depth she truly held.
She never wanted us too near,
For fear of love itself.
She shut us out and kept her in,
So that we'd never know,
That she was scared of what we'd think,
When she let her true self show.
-james
Laughter, Joy and Love
Walking all alone,
Shadows flicker,
Footsteps groan,
He approaches,
Secret smiles exchanged,
Lost feelings renewed,
Laughter, Joy and Love.
First, Laughter
Ringing clear and true.
Next Joy,
Filling the hearts of many.
Then Love,
Lingering like a morning fog,
Dampening some,
While enlightening others.
Laughter, Joy and Love.
-james
