HEBREWS 12:1

THEREFORE, SINCE WE ARE SURROUNDED BY SUCH A GREAT CLOUD OF WITNESSES, LET US THROW OFF EVERYTHING THAT HINDERS AND THE SIN THAT SO EASILY ENTANGLES, AND LET US RUN WITH PERSEVERANCE THE RACE MARKED OUT FOR US.

The Essence of Survival

Every morning in Africa a gazelle wakes up. It knows that it must run faster today than the fastest lion, or it will be killed.

Every morning in Africa a lion wakes up. It knows that it must run faster today than the slowest gazelle, or it will starve to death.

It doesn't matter whether you are a lion or a gazelle. When the sun comes up, you'd better be running.

BRRAAAPPP!!!!

April 30, 2008

lotsa stuff

hello. its been like a week so i figured i should prob write something. lol. so not too much has been going on. last week was a lil boring except for saturday. we went to seattle supercross!!! it was tons an tons of fun. the weather was awesome. i saw a lot of people i know. and i saw chad reed! like up-close! :):):) he is so so so so cute. lol. and i got a tshirt with a big fat 22 on the back. so haha lance! but in the main reed crashed at the beginning and was in last place. he worked his way all the way back to 2nd place and if there had been just one more lap he woulda kicked windhams ass. i was pretty bummed that he didnt win. but it was so cool to be able to watch it. thats a day that i wont ever forget! and than sunday i had to do a buncha yardwork and when i was done with that I made some yummy cookies. monday- i had a track meet and i got first place in the mile. but i did bad at my 800 so i was kinda mad. i need one more point to be able to letter. i really hope i do at my meet tomorrow. tuesday- i went to the gym, than got some cute pj's at target, went back home, did schoolwork, went to track. at track, we were running on trails in the woods and my shoes got wet and dirty! so i pouted for awhile haha. today- hmmm. not too much so far. i was super tired when i got up and than i had to get ready super fast and than i sat in the car for awhile while my bro was in the orthodontist now im at work and i was doing schoolwork for like the past hour an a half. wow. i typed that so fast. now i'm outta energy lol. okay well i will write again soon cuz i gotta get back to my schoolwork. :) :) peace.

April 23, 2008

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CHARLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got a kitten yesterday! she is 8 weeks old today and she weighs 15 ounces!!! she fits right in my hand :) she is a lil sweetheart an she likes to curl up on my shoulder an fall asleep. its SO cute! i will have to post a pic of her later today when i get home from work. she's a little fluff ball haha. its funny cuz my mom an i picked out this jungle gym thing for her to play with but after i set it all up i realized she's still too little to play in it. o well. lol i'll just have to wait for her to get a bit bigger. she fell asleep on me last night an so i felt really bad when i had to pick her up an put her in her crate to sleep :( she cried for a really long time b4 she gave up an went to sleep. than at about 6:15 ish this morning she cried until she woke me up. all she wanted was to come snuggle up under my blankets! wut a lil stinker haha. im sure she's cryin right now tho cuz i had to leave her at home today cuz were doin a lot of running around. :( o i forgot, her name is charlie! she's named after the video on the bottom of my blog home page. haha. okey dokey well i'm goin to do some school stuff so i'll write more later. peace.

April 15, 2008

WOOHOO

okay so i basically had the best weekend ever! my parents just outta nowhere decided to get me a new dirtbike!!!! so my dad an i drove to motosport hillsboro and we picked up a 150, new gear, boots, knee braces, chest protector, an a leatt neck brace. i was pretty much in shock! haha. it was awesome. than when we got back to the track i rode for a long time an got my new boots all muddy :( lol. but its okay cuz i washed em. than on sunday, i raced. it was pretty scary lol jk. but since im a slowpoke, i got last lol. i'll be workin on that for sure tho! but yesterday when i woke up, i was SO sore. it sucked lol. but right now i gtg cuz i have to do schoolwork. :( bummer. lol.

April 14, 2008

wasting time

have you ever noticed how easy it is to let go and let everything that you've worked so hard for just slip through your fingers? and at the time you think it seems like a good idea but then, looking back you realize that it is not good at all. it is so easy to just sit around and do nothing productive. so easy to get side-tracked. and so easy to forget about all of the things that you need to get done. i get this way a lot. i fill my time with stupid useless tasks and dont even think twice about the more important things i should be focusing on. haha in fact, i'm doing it right now. i could be doin schoolwork but i dont want to. not at all. see how easy it is to waste time!? lol. okay well on that note, i should go do some schoolwork :( ugh. i'll write more later tho cuz i have a lot to say bout this weekend. peace.

April 11, 2008

ugh i got up at 7:30 to go to track. that was the dumbest thing i've done in forever. haha. i was so sleepy, like yawning the whole time. haha now im at work basically just sitten here bein bored. i only worked for a lil bit. and then later i get to go home, pack up my stuff and head to another dirtbike track. woohoo. lol. but i'm actually considering ridin this weekend cuz my not older bro (matt) haha wants me to. im not so surewhy he wants me to ride so bad lol but i miss it so it'll feel good to go out and ride like a pansy some more. :) btw, i am the slowest person in the world at ridin dirtbikes. like no joke. but matt said that the more i ride, the faster i'll go an i believe him cuz he's pretty smart lol but i gtg now to work so i'll write more later. peace.

April 10, 2008

busy busy

today was a good day. my mom and i went shopping and i got tons of stuff. :) and when we were on our way out, the ladies at the dior counter stopped us and did our makeup. haha. i look pretty darn good if i do say so myself, and i do haha. but ya we had tons of fun and then we came home, i did a buncha chores, made dinner and 3 loaves of banana bread. so it was a pretty busy day an im sorry but i dont feel like writing out all the details right now. maybe later. :) peace.

April 9, 2008

BAM lol


okay heres the nails lol:

haha this is the coolest color ever.

they look brighter in real life tho lol.

April 8, 2008

ORANGE :) :)

i got my nails done today. the color i chose was bright neon orange! it is basically the coolest color ever. i will take a pic later and post it if i remember. :) haha thats all i wanted to say...

April 7, 2008

its been awhile...

ok its been a couple days...lol. i had a track meet on thursday an i like blacked out after my 800 but i beat my record at it so i dont care haha. and i spent the weekend at my grammys house and we went shoppin and to the movies so that was a buncha fun. and yesterday, i spent the day at mikeys house. we watched movies, i made him read i spy books, i tried to do this puzzle thing, an i took all of his reeses. woohoo!! hehe. but i really had a good day. :) he makes me smile and laugh and makes me wanna jump up and down. lol well, maybe not jump up an down but i thought it sounded good. :) an he got his haircut super short but i think its cute. and today i went up boardin. my last time of the season :( *sniff *sniff *tear *tear. lol. but it was also the best day i had of boardin this season. i went with my buddy chase and somehow he convinced me to do all of the runs that i have been scared of all season. IT WAS AWESOME!! haha. i didnt know i could board so good. we bombed down the mt. haha. well, maybe not but it certainly felt that way. and we had these massive hot chocolates! they were the best. they had like cookie crumbs, caramel, whipped cream, and chocolate syrup on top. MMMM!!!! haha they were SO SO SO SO SO delicious. lol. and i saw some of my other friends up there which was pretty tight. now my face is a lil wind-burned but it was totally worth it. i love boardin. its my favorite sport in the world! okay i think i got that all outta my system...no wait: I LOVE BOARDIN!!!!!!!!!!....haha okay now seriously, im done. i promise. hehe. alright but ya i think thats about all that has happened since the last time i wrote. :) so i cant guarantee ill post again soon, but eventually i will. peace.

April 1, 2008

long weekend

hola. its been awhile...lol. so i spent the weekend at a dirtbike track and it was freezing the whole time!! i thought i was gonna turn into a popsicle. we left on thursday and got back late sunday night. on friday me and sammi went to the mall. it was SO much fun. lol. she was really hyper so we were movin pretty fast and we both had our radars up (haha inside joke) but seriously i had tons of fun. and we got some orange julius' and sammi picked out some big star earrings for me that i wore the next day. and after we got those, sammi decided she wanted a chili dog!! haha. i have never had one of those and i dont plan on it. but she dug right in lol. when we got back to track mikey pulled in. :) :) i was pretty happy cuz i hadnt seen him in like 2 weeks. then on saturday i wore my new earrings and it was really windy so they kept smacking me in the face, it was pretty funny. and there was this kid from canada parked next to our trailer who sammi and i decided was a cutie. well when we first talked to him he was changing his tire with his dad and sammi just like walked up and was askin them if they wanted help. it was one of those where you just needed to be there to understand how funny it was. and on sunday he crashed in his practice and dislocated his shoulder, broke his wrist and hand or something like that so the medics brought him back to his trailer and we were watchin out the window (it was another "you had to be there" moment) and they like cut off his shirt and stuff. after the medics left we went over to talk to him and his knuckles were all scraped up an bloody and he looked SO out of it!! so we said bye and he left for the hospital. bummer. but hey its a risky sport i mean just look at mikey with a broken collar bone. now that was a bummer. but it was cool bein able to hangout with him all weekend instead of having him racing. okay wow i just noticed how lengthy this is gettin. umm, nothin else really happened. o wait ya, on sunday we were playin guitar hero in mikes motorhome. i did pretty awesome if i do say so myself. lol. okay well i have nothin else to say so peace.
These are a bunch of poems I have written during various times in my life...
All Without Words

Walking away
Glancing back
Somber faces
Eyes like glass

Glancing back
A glint
A tear
Rolling down a cheek
Frozen in time
No words to speak
Emotions mixed
Confusion rings

Glancing back
Tender lips
A fake smile
Take no comfort
A long while
Till this will pass

Glancing back
Pained expressions
Joy lacks

Glancing back
The eyes
That used to smile
Say goodbye
Silence.

-james
I Don't Know

When I'm alone
I feel cold
Like I'm struggling to breathe

All by myself
Like a story
With no happy ending

I feel weak
At the knees
Like I'm falling towards the ground

It's like I'm lost
In a maze
And I can't find my way out

I'm tired, scared and reckless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you

I felt safe
In your arms
Now I'm not sure where to go

I could go right
I could go left
But right now I'm too confused

You said for sure
That you would stay
But now you've gone away

And here I sit
Wondering
What am I supposed to do

I'm lonely, sad and restless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you

-james

How Do You Know?

How do you know?

You know when merely the thought of him brings you joy.

When even the smallest glimpse of him quickens your heartbeat.

When he takes your breath away with a single smile.

When he holds you in his arms and all of your words are lost.

When you can look into each others eyes and say I love you without ever parting your lips.

You know when you no longer ask yourself, "Is this it?"

-james

Him

The hair that I run my fingers through

The eyes that stare into mine

The ears that listen to all I have to say

The lips that kiss mine

The arms that hold me tight

The fingers that intertwine with mine

The legs with which he stands tall

The feet that support him

From head to toe

He is perfect

-james

Do You Know?

Is it love
You ask yourself
How do you know
How should it feel

I think love
Should feel breathless
Amazing and complete

What is love
We always wonder
Will I know
Will I be sure

I'm sure love
Will feel certain
And you'll never have a doubt

I think of it as wonderful
Like in a splendid dream
Never pressured, always patient
As in fairytales it seems

So when you ask if it is love or not
Only ask yourself
Because to each and every person
A different answers found

-james
Silent Knowing

Together they share,
Unknown to others,
A smile, a touch, a private stare.

Lost are they,
In a world all their own,
Treasuring silence,
Yet a million words to say.

Words linger unsaid,
And float through their minds,
Fingers intertwine,
Thoughts of all else dead.

Their smiles they show,
Their feelings they express,
Their words are left silent,
Because in their hearts they know.

-james
Hiding

Hidden is she,
The one you never see.
Empty and lonely,
Hidden deep beneath the sea.

Sea of faces,
Sea of tears,
Sea of places,
Sea of fears.

She hides herself from us you see,
Because she never learned to be.
Learned to be free,
And spread her wings,
Open herself,
For us to see.

She never wanted us to know,
The depth she truly held.
She never wanted us too near,
For fear of love itself.

She shut us out and kept her in,
So that we'd never know,
That she was scared of what we'd think,
When she let her true self show.

-james
Laughter, Joy and Love

Walking all alone,
Shadows flicker,
Footsteps groan,
He approaches,
Secret smiles exchanged,
Lost feelings renewed,
Laughter, Joy and Love.
First, Laughter
Ringing clear and true.
Next Joy,
Filling the hearts of many.
Then Love,
Lingering like a morning fog,
Dampening some,
While enlightening others.
Laughter, Joy and Love.

-james