I have been completely exhausted lately and from what? I have no idea..doing nothing makes me tired i guess..Patrick was supposed to be here this week but had some family stuff going on so his trip got postponed :( which kinda bummed me out like majorly. But at least I get to see kayla soon..i'll be at her house from the 18th-25th of next month. that should be super fun. i cant wait. and mom and i are taking a trip to see cody before i go to kaylas. than we have a dirtbike race..my birthday..and school starts 9/23 yippee skippee-not :P i tried to read through my biology textbook but *snore* it was uber boring. i hung out with tyler like every day this week which was good :) :) we went to the lake a couple times. yay for jet skis-fun stuff! andd other than that not much is going on!
wham bam blue eyes :)
My friend Patrick from New York
My friend Maggie from idk where
at the skate bowls
Me and my friend Kayla who is from Ohio
Camp was awesome. I got really sore though. But i had tons of ice cream and grilled cheese with bacon. yum yum yum. and i met tons of cool people from all over who i will keep in touch with and will see at camp next year. after mom picked me up we went straight to a dirtbike track and i rode 3 days in a row. than on tuesday cross country practice started so right about now i am ready to crash. hello hot tub.
These are a bunch of poems I have written during various times in my life...
All Without Words
Walking away
Glancing back
Somber faces
Eyes like glass
Glancing back
A glint
A tear
Rolling down a cheek
Frozen in time
No words to speak
Emotions mixed
Confusion rings
Glancing back
Tender lips
A fake smile
Take no comfort
A long while
Till this will pass
Glancing back
Pained expressions
Joy lacks
Glancing back
The eyes
That used to smile
Say goodbye
Silence.
-james
I Don't Know
When I'm alone
I feel cold
Like I'm struggling to breathe
All by myself
Like a story
With no happy ending
I feel weak
At the knees
Like I'm falling towards the ground
It's like I'm lost
In a maze
And I can't find my way out
I'm tired, scared and reckless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
I felt safe
In your arms
Now I'm not sure where to go
I could go right
I could go left
But right now I'm too confused
You said for sure
That you would stay
But now you've gone away
And here I sit
Wondering
What am I supposed to do
I'm lonely, sad and restless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
-james
How Do You Know?
How do you know?
You know when merely the thought of him brings you joy.
When even the smallest glimpse of him quickens your heartbeat.
When he takes your breath away with a single smile.
When he holds you in his arms and all of your words are lost.
When you can look into each others eyes and say I love you without ever parting your lips.
You know when you no longer ask yourself, "Is this it?"
-james
Him
The hair that I run my fingers through
The eyes that stare into mine
The ears that listen to all I have to say
The lips that kiss mine
The arms that hold me tight
The fingers that intertwine with mine
The legs with which he stands tall
The feet that support him
From head to toe
He is perfect
-james
Do You Know?
Is it love
You ask yourself
How do you know
How should it feel
I think love
Should feel breathless
Amazing and complete
What is love
We always wonder
Will I know
Will I be sure
I'm sure love
Will feel certain
And you'll never have a doubt
I think of it as wonderful
Like in a splendid dream
Never pressured, always patient
As in fairytales it seems
So when you ask if it is love or not
Only ask yourself
Because to each and every person
A different answers found
-james
Silent Knowing
Together they share,
Unknown to others,
A smile, a touch, a private stare.
Lost are they,
In a world all their own,
Treasuring silence,
Yet a million words to say.
Words linger unsaid,
And float through their minds,
Fingers intertwine,
Thoughts of all else dead.
Their smiles they show,
Their feelings they express,
Their words are left silent,
Because in their hearts they know.
-james
Hiding
Hidden is she,
The one you never see.
Empty and lonely,
Hidden deep beneath the sea.
Sea of faces,
Sea of tears,
Sea of places,
Sea of fears.
She hides herself from us you see,
Because she never learned to be.
Learned to be free,
And spread her wings,
Open herself,
For us to see.
She never wanted us to know,
The depth she truly held.
She never wanted us too near,
For fear of love itself.
She shut us out and kept her in,
So that we'd never know,
That she was scared of what we'd think,
When she let her true self show.
-james
Laughter, Joy and Love
Walking all alone,
Shadows flicker,
Footsteps groan,
He approaches,
Secret smiles exchanged,
Lost feelings renewed,
Laughter, Joy and Love.
First, Laughter
Ringing clear and true.
Next Joy,
Filling the hearts of many.
Then Love,
Lingering like a morning fog,
Dampening some,
While enlightening others.
Laughter, Joy and Love.
-james
