I raced arenacross for the first time this weekend. it was fun, but a lotta work. my arms are hurting REAL bad lol. it was fun though being back at the track an on my bike. i got to wear my new gear too which made me happy. i rode practice on friday an did okay, only stalling twice. than i raced saturday and only stalled once, on the start in my first moto :( but i had a really good start in the second one which was good. all in all it was a pretty good weekend (minus the aching muscles and barely being able to crawl outta bed this morning haha) also, shon fell asleep on the floor in the truck on the way there. it was pretty funny:
Running,
fast, focused,
exhilarating, breathing, pushing,
through the trees, up the hills, around the corners-
working, sprinting, rewarding,
hard, fun,
Cross Country
I know I havent blogged lately...nothing of consequence has been happening to me. Same ol, same ol. Its kind of getting dull. Something drastic needs to happen lol. Like a snowstorm. i like snow, a lot. like a really lot haha...what im getting at is that i really wanna go boardin. like yesterday haha.
Setting: The family is in the living room eating dinner and watching TV. Ad comes on for the Twilight movie that is coming out next week. Lady in background says how the movie was filmed in Washington.Me: Oh! I loved that book!! I remember how it happened in Forks, WA.Dad: So, is that based on a true story?Me: Vampires aren't real Daddy...Mom:
hysterically laughing for a good 2 minutes
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Heres a pic from state. the EHS girl behind me in the black is a girl who i had been trying to beat all year and look at that! i did :) woo for determination! this pic makes me laugh tho becuz i make some pretty weird faces when i run...an my shorts ride up so all you can see is my spankies...not very appealing i gotta say lol
our team took 16th place outta 18. i know thats not spectacular or anything but we havent even taken a girls team to state in 8 years so big improvement!! we were all happy with our effort and we'll place higher next year :)
so basically all i have to say right now is that i am GOING TO STATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes thats right. I am going to state for cross country. pretty sweeto huh? we had districts on saturday i ran a 22:36 not my best but definitely not my worst either so no worries. an now on friday the girls XC team is headin to the tri-cities to run at the state meet. ...oh an did i mention that it has been 8 years since my HS has taken the girls XC team? ya that pretty much means were legit haha. our coach is proud and we are proud. we've worked hard for this.
These are a bunch of poems I have written during various times in my life...
All Without Words
Walking away
Glancing back
Somber faces
Eyes like glass
Glancing back
A glint
A tear
Rolling down a cheek
Frozen in time
No words to speak
Emotions mixed
Confusion rings
Glancing back
Tender lips
A fake smile
Take no comfort
A long while
Till this will pass
Glancing back
Pained expressions
Joy lacks
Glancing back
The eyes
That used to smile
Say goodbye
Silence.
-james
I Don't Know
When I'm alone
I feel cold
Like I'm struggling to breathe
All by myself
Like a story
With no happy ending
I feel weak
At the knees
Like I'm falling towards the ground
It's like I'm lost
In a maze
And I can't find my way out
I'm tired, scared and reckless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
I felt safe
In your arms
Now I'm not sure where to go
I could go right
I could go left
But right now I'm too confused
You said for sure
That you would stay
But now you've gone away
And here I sit
Wondering
What am I supposed to do
I'm lonely, sad and restless
And I don't know what to do
I'm fighting with myself
Should I keep running after you
-james
How Do You Know?
How do you know?
You know when merely the thought of him brings you joy.
When even the smallest glimpse of him quickens your heartbeat.
When he takes your breath away with a single smile.
When he holds you in his arms and all of your words are lost.
When you can look into each others eyes and say I love you without ever parting your lips.
You know when you no longer ask yourself, "Is this it?"
-james
Him
The hair that I run my fingers through
The eyes that stare into mine
The ears that listen to all I have to say
The lips that kiss mine
The arms that hold me tight
The fingers that intertwine with mine
The legs with which he stands tall
The feet that support him
From head to toe
He is perfect
-james
Do You Know?
Is it love
You ask yourself
How do you know
How should it feel
I think love
Should feel breathless
Amazing and complete
What is love
We always wonder
Will I know
Will I be sure
I'm sure love
Will feel certain
And you'll never have a doubt
I think of it as wonderful
Like in a splendid dream
Never pressured, always patient
As in fairytales it seems
So when you ask if it is love or not
Only ask yourself
Because to each and every person
A different answers found
-james
Silent Knowing
Together they share,
Unknown to others,
A smile, a touch, a private stare.
Lost are they,
In a world all their own,
Treasuring silence,
Yet a million words to say.
Words linger unsaid,
And float through their minds,
Fingers intertwine,
Thoughts of all else dead.
Their smiles they show,
Their feelings they express,
Their words are left silent,
Because in their hearts they know.
-james
Hiding
Hidden is she,
The one you never see.
Empty and lonely,
Hidden deep beneath the sea.
Sea of faces,
Sea of tears,
Sea of places,
Sea of fears.
She hides herself from us you see,
Because she never learned to be.
Learned to be free,
And spread her wings,
Open herself,
For us to see.
She never wanted us to know,
The depth she truly held.
She never wanted us too near,
For fear of love itself.
She shut us out and kept her in,
So that we'd never know,
That she was scared of what we'd think,
When she let her true self show.
-james
Laughter, Joy and Love
Walking all alone,
Shadows flicker,
Footsteps groan,
He approaches,
Secret smiles exchanged,
Lost feelings renewed,
Laughter, Joy and Love.
First, Laughter
Ringing clear and true.
Next Joy,
Filling the hearts of many.
Then Love,
Lingering like a morning fog,
Dampening some,
While enlightening others.
Laughter, Joy and Love.
-james
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